Queasy Day

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Cameron is changing positions – from tranverse lie to head down – he’s not quite all the way there but started the journey this morning around 750a as I was driving to therapy. His first move was startling and a bit painful. Now I’m just plain nauseated. He seems to be somewhat “stuck” although not painfully so, at a diagonal between my left ribs and my right pelvic bone. He is curving up around my belly button and I can feel his general position. OOOh… he just seriously pushed on my bladder – and it’s almost full. I’m trying to hold it b/c Alli has been totally silent for nearly an hour now. I think she’s sleeping and I really want to let her sleep. She needs it. Heck, I need it.

I am watching a very fascinating documentary about Abraham on the History Channel, called Children of Abraham. It examines Abraham’s role as a cornerstone of Judaism, Islam, and Christianity. I love documentaries to begin with but this is the first one I’ve really been interested in watching to completion in a LONG time. Definitely worth a look.

I think I’m going to have to go use the restroom soon. Cameron seems set on pushing against my bladder. If this keeps up I will end up having an accident and that just wouldn’t be good. Just about nine weeks to go – and at least I’ll have my bladder back to myself, right? LOL.

Once all this is done and over with (by that I mean, giving birth and Cameron has finished nursing), I am getting a HUGE butterfly tattoo on the front of my left ankle with some morning glory vines wrapped all the way around. It will be a symbol of how much I’ve changed and of my freedom as a woman, in motherhood. And I wouldn’t have thought about doing this until a few months ago when Alli “stamped” the front of my ankle one day as we were playing in the floor. It didn’t fade for nearly two weeks – even with showers and scrubbing. The butterfly grew on me and I liked the way it looked – providing the inspiration. I hope to still be blogging when I get the tat – and I promise I will post pictures.

Ok, time to run. Cameron’s realllly pushing the envelope here – (and this envelope might just burst!)

My Favourite Song of the Moment

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This is the song that relaxes me the most right now:

One by U2

Here are the lyrics:

Is it getting better
Or do you feel the same
Will it make it easier on you now
You got someone to blame
You say…

One love
One life
When it’s one need
In the night
One love
We get to share it
Leaves you baby if you
Don’t care for it

Did I disappoint you
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
Well it’s…

Too late
Tonight
To drag the past out into the light
We’re one, but we’re not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other
One…
Have you come here for forgiveness
Have you come to raise the dead
Have you come here to play Jesus
To the lepers in your head

Did I ask too much
More than a lot
You gave me nothing
Now it’s all I got
We’re one
But we’re not the same
Well we
Hurt each other
Then we do it again
You say
Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
And I can’t be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt
One love
One blood
One life
You got to do what you should
One life
With each other
Sisters
Brothers
One life
But we’re not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other

One…life

One

I hereby dub thee Day of the Hundred Tantrums

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Today has already proven to be full of challenges. I am anxiously awaiting quiet time when I can get light some incense and fix myself a cup of hot tea!

Charlotte is down for a nap – she was up late last night as we went over to the in-law’s for Halloween. I tried to let her play but she kept throwing tantrum after tantrum. This momma doesn’t DO fussy so off to bed she went, where she is now quietly resting.

Our older daughter, Alli, also was full of tantrums this morning. So much so that she just spent about 30 minutes in her room. She is now in the floor playing independently with the arts and crafts stuff.

And the kicker is that I am out of meds. My husband and I are taking the same medication and due to a screw up at his doctor’s office, we’ve been sharing. However, I just got off the phone with our pharmacy and my meds were refilled yesterday so I’ll be able to take it this evening. On the up side, my Omega 3-6-9 showed up yesterday so I’m on that already as well. *deep breath*

I’ve got a teleconference call later too – at 1p so the girls will be eating lunch around 1130a to guarantee that I am able to get everything I need to get done by the time the call starts.

As long as I can remember to breathe deeply today, I should be ok.

Moments of Realization

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I had one of those this morning. And those of you who have been reading since the beginning may giggle at it. After I had it, I did. But it also scared me a bit.

Last Friday, my therapist and I were working out our next few appointments. She commented that Thanksgiving is not that far away. At the time, it didn’t hit home.

Well it did this morning while I was taking a shower. And this is how the realization started.

Today is Halloween, the end of October.

Which means November starts tomorrow.

Which means Thanksgiving is only a few weeks away.

Which means Christmas is less than a month away from Thanksgiving.

Which means that thirteen days after Christmas is when Cameron is “due”.

WHAM!

I’M HAVING A BABY! AND HE’LL BE HERE IN TWO MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*SCREAMS*

I totally freaked out – fortunately it didn’t develop into a panic attack, no tightness in the chest, no shallow breathing – but the realization was well, surreal. Nevermind that I’ve been blogging the pregnancy, going to OB appts, that Cameron’s been kicking up a storm. So yes, I have been “aware” that I am pregnant but it hadn’t hit home until now that delivery is RIGHT around the corner. Wow.

I’m looking forward to having a new baby in the house, really, I am. And so are the girls. Charlotte’s even taken to patting my belly and smiling. I just can’t BELIEVE he’ll be here in two months!

Need to vent – just a smidge –

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During a trip to the grocery store this morning, I saw something that really irritated me. I try my darndest not to judge parenting choices of other parents. However; there are some basic care decisions that well, seem obvious.

This morning as I was going into the grocery store, I saw another mother carrying a child (who appeared to be 5 or 6yo) into the store. The child was dressed in a fairy/ballerina costume and had no shoes, leggings, stockings, and was also not wearing a jacket. When I left my home for the grocery store (which is 5min away), it was 35 degrees outside. Granted, the mother wasn’t wearing a coat either so maybe they’re just warm-blooded. But my gut feeling was that this child threw a major fit and refused to put any of the above obviously required clothing on prior to leaving home. And the reason I have that feeling is because I heard this child throw a temper tantrum in the store. And the mother immediately gave into the whims of the child. Yes, I have given in on occasion, sometimes it’s just not worth it, but my children rarely throw fits in public because they KNOW we will go home and they will lose privileges as well as whatever we were there to buy.

It wasn’t so much the behaviour that I found appalling, but the lack of warm clothing on the child. UGH! She should have at least had stockings and shoes on – but barefoot? At 5 or 6? And being carried into a store? Ummmm – NO.

Ok, I’m through Venting. Thanks for reading. I’ll return to the normal inspirational stuff tomorrow, I promise. 😉