Monthly Archives: October 2007

Moments of Realization

I had one of those this morning. And those of you who have been reading since the beginning may giggle at it. After I had it, I did. But it also scared me a bit.

Last Friday, my therapist and I were working out our next few appointments. She commented that Thanksgiving is not that far away. At the time, it didn’t hit home.

Well it did this morning while I was taking a shower. And this is how the realization started.

Today is Halloween, the end of October.

Which means November starts tomorrow.

Which means Thanksgiving is only a few weeks away.

Which means Christmas is less than a month away from Thanksgiving.

Which means that thirteen days after Christmas is when Cameron is “due”.

WHAM!

I’M HAVING A BABY! AND HE’LL BE HERE IN TWO MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*SCREAMS*

I totally freaked out – fortunately it didn’t develop into a panic attack, no tightness in the chest, no shallow breathing – but the realization was well, surreal. Nevermind that I’ve been blogging the pregnancy, going to OB appts, that Cameron’s been kicking up a storm. So yes, I have been “aware” that I am pregnant but it hadn’t hit home until now that delivery is RIGHT around the corner. Wow.

I’m looking forward to having a new baby in the house, really, I am. And so are the girls. Charlotte’s even taken to patting my belly and smiling. I just can’t BELIEVE he’ll be here in two months!

Need to vent – just a smidge –

During a trip to the grocery store this morning, I saw something that really irritated me. I try my darndest not to judge parenting choices of other parents. However; there are some basic care decisions that well, seem obvious.

This morning as I was going into the grocery store, I saw another mother carrying a child (who appeared to be 5 or 6yo) into the store. The child was dressed in a fairy/ballerina costume and had no shoes, leggings, stockings, and was also not wearing a jacket. When I left my home for the grocery store (which is 5min away), it was 35 degrees outside. Granted, the mother wasn’t wearing a coat either so maybe they’re just warm-blooded. But my gut feeling was that this child threw a major fit and refused to put any of the above obviously required clothing on prior to leaving home. And the reason I have that feeling is because I heard this child throw a temper tantrum in the store. And the mother immediately gave into the whims of the child. Yes, I have given in on occasion, sometimes it’s just not worth it, but my children rarely throw fits in public because they KNOW we will go home and they will lose privileges as well as whatever we were there to buy.

It wasn’t so much the behaviour that I found appalling, but the lack of warm clothing on the child. UGH! She should have at least had stockings and shoes on – but barefoot? At 5 or 6? And being carried into a store? Ummmm – NO.

Ok, I’m through Venting. Thanks for reading. I’ll return to the normal inspirational stuff tomorrow, I promise. 😉

Quiet Sunday

Chris is sacked out on the couch, the girls are down for quiet time (well, not for much longer), and I have watched Back to the Future and am now watching There’s Something About Mary.

I wrote an opinion piece today that I plan on submitting to the local paper. I’ll publish it here once I find out if they’re going to or not. It’s pretty funny, actually. I think you’ll enjoy reading it. :-)

Not too much else to report, just a quiet day. OH!

Wait a second!

GEORGIA BEAT FLORIDA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GO DAWGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 Ok, glad I got that out of my system. I can leave a happy woman now.

Called my Senators!

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I am proud to say that I called the Georgia Senators today to urge their support of the Mother’s Act, bill s 1375. I will paste what I wrote up to say to them (which ended up being a guideline and was not read word for word once I got on the phone)

I will say that Sen. Chambliss’ office actually listened to what I had to say and seemed more open to my story. Sen. Isakson’s office didn’t even let me get past barely mentioning the bill before they thanked me for the call and hung up. Guess I’ll have to email him.

Here’s the “script” I used:

  Hello this is Lauren Hale, one of the Senator’s constituents from GA. I am calling to ask the Senator to co-sponsor The MOTHERS Act bill number S. 1375, sponsored by Senator Menendez, which will provide funding for research, education, screening and treatment of postpartum depression. 800,000 new US mothers will be diagnosed with a Postpartum Disorder this year yet only 120,000 of them will receive treatment leaving 680,000 new moms suffering without the support of the medical community. This is a gap we cannot afford to ignore any longer. If you have a moment, I’d like to share with you my reason for urging the Senator’s support of this important bill.

I believe in this bill as a result of two personal experiences with a Postpartum Depression Disorder. One episode was treated and included hospitalization; one went untreated due to the lack of knowledge on the part of my physician and I, an occurrence this bill will prevent for other women.
I have since founded my own peer support organization for women with PPD, volunteer with Postpartum Support International, and also moderate online support for women and families suffering from Postpartum Depression. I am also blogging my third and unexpected pregnancy so that others facing pregnancy after PPD will not have to go it alone.
It is of the utmost importance that women with Postpartum Depression Disorders receive timely and proper treatment for their illness and the passage of the MOTHERS Act is imperative in order for this to become a reality. Please do not let the Senator’s constituents or mothers across the nation continue to suffer alone and in silence. Give them a voice as well as a strong, reliable and hopeful path towards the recovery they so desperately seek.  

Quick Note about the New Look

I added a couple of pages  – Senator Contact Information and a Katie Corcoran page. In doing so, the theme I was using unfortunately blocked the pages that were listed at the top and I was not able to fix the problem EXCEPT to get a new theme. The colours chosen are to reflect warmth and sunshine. I miss the picture too – I had found it very relaxing and meaningful. I will continue to work with the other theme to see if I can get it up and running without blocking the text of the new pages. For now, this is the new look. Hope you like it!

Blog Day for MOTHER’S ACT Support Information

Tomorrow, Oct. 24th, is BLOG DAY in support of the MOTHER’S ACT. The following has been copied from www.postpartum.net and you will find a new page with Senator Contact info listed by state. This info also indicates who has already signed on as a co-sponsor. Even if you’re not a blogger, please call your senator.

 Here’s the message from PSI President Susan Stone:

Thank you for taking time to participate in this LIFE SAVING legislative initiative which will help to end the suffering of thousands of mothers, infants and families, while offering education, research and training to those who are charged with their care. Together, we are a powerful force to support the promotion of The MOTHERS Act until it becomes federal law.  The implementation of this pivotal pro-social supportive legislation will offer crucial safeguards to women, children and families.

PLEASE LET OUR NATION AND LEGISLATORS KNOW YOU WILL NOT STAND FOR THIS ISSUE TO BE IGNORED ANY LONGER. This is a bipartisan issue that BOTH Democratic and Republican state senators need to support. Just PICK UP THE PHONE and CALL!! If the line is busy, call back or leave your message.

And if your state senator has already signed on to sponsor The MOTHERS Act, call them anyway to express your thanks and support of their stance, to let them know how much this matters and to keep their attention focused on the issue!

A suggested script is below to help the legislative responders in each office identify the referenced bill and the reason for your call. But feel free to add your own powerful and personal ideas/statements about why you feel the passage of this legislation is so important!

REMEMBER – Up to 800,000 women in the U.S. will develop a diagnosable perinatal mood disorder this year! (This does not include women whose babies are stillborn, who miscarry or suffer pregnancy termination). Yet only 15% of these women will receive any treatment. We need to do a better job screening, educating and treating our nation’s mothers! The MOTHERS Act addresses these concerns and offers the common sense and needed remedies of screening, education, provision of services and research. Thanks to your efforts it will not go unnoticed! Let’s move this out of the HELP committee and into the full senate!!

Warmly,

Susan

 Suggested Script

“Hello this is (your name) one of Senator (Senator’s name) constituents from (your town). I am calling to ask the Senator to co-sponsor The MOTHERS Act bill number S. 1375, sponsored by Senator Menendez, which will provide funding for research, education, screening and treatment of postpartum depression.”

Dear Katie,

 You are not alone. You are not to blame. And you will be well with help. There are so many women across the nation and across the world who have been where you are – suffering alone, scared, anxiety ridden and filled with guilt that they are not being the “best” or “most perfect” mother that they can be. Motherhood isn’t easy for everyone. Even the moms who make it look easy have a hard time. But the good news is that it does get easier and it does get better. Some of us have to take it hour by hour or even minute by minute in the beginning. And some of us need more help than others to get through the early steps of motherhood. Through peer support and solid medical support we make it through. We survive the sheer desperation and panic of postpartum disorders and we make it through. And you know what? It makes us stronger. It makes us even more grateful for what we have, for every smile we witness, for every hug we receive. Because we remember when we couldn’t enjoy those times. I know you’re scared and frightened – there are people who can help you and want to help you on your journey to recovery.

When I suffered from Postpartum OCD, I couldn’t enjoy my children. I didn’t want to laugh or smile. I wanted them to go away and I would get angry with them for the smallest thing. Several times I thought about running away. But where to? And if I left, would I really solve my problems? At the time I thought I would. And then I came crashing down – and landed in the hospital for treatment. I slept the whole weekend and my medication was changed. I also started to reach out for peer support which helped me immensely. Through contact with women in the local birthing network, Jane Honikman, and starting talk therapy, I slowly started to dig my way out of the deep dark hole I had fallen into. And I eventually got to the top. I won’t lie – it was hard work. And by no stretch of the imagination am I who I used to be. I have changed. For the better I think. But I had others to help me and to rely on. And now I pay it forward by helping other women.

I want you to know that you have been in my prayers since I first heard of your disappearance. I have been praying for you and your precious family. I pray that you are safe and alive. I pray that you will return to your two precious boys and your loving husband soon. I know they miss you terribly. Katie, if there’s a chance you are reading this, know that there are a lot of caring and concerned people praying for your safe return home. Know that we do not blame you and we all want to help you in any way that we can. You can do this – you are NOT alone!

Warmest,

Lauren

Thank You!

I want to thank all of you who have been following my journey and have either shared it with others or found it helpful in your own lives. I had planned this post for 2500 but this morning I found I have surpassed 2500 hits by nearly 200. (see what I get for taking the weekend off?!?!)

Seriously – I appreciate your readership and knowing that others are gaining insight into PPD and pregnancy after PPD means the world to me. When I started, the blog was more for me to vent and express how I was feeling – and also to share with others – but I certainly wasn’t expecting a lot of readers and am quite surprised that in just six short months I have had 2500 people read bits and pieces of my blog. That’s 2500 more people with whom I have shared my story.

I encourage other survivors to speak up, survivors who are already speaking up to continue doing so – there is strength to be found in your stories and what were your dark places. By sharing these things with other women we can not only pass the wisdom we have learned the hard way onto others but we can also pull them up out of their dark places just as we were pulled up and out by others. Postpartum Depression does not have to be suffered alone – and I am truly blessed to be able to help other women find their light at the end of their tunnel. It is an ability I do not take lightly at all and for which I am grateful.